A new book

Flesh and blood quickly becoming a thing of the past, live interaction going out like the cut of my jeans. A diary for the world to read, what a strange concept. No longer stuffed between matress and springs, not hidden from small prying siblings.

This book of faces, a declaration to the world, a digital facebook, a brilliant creation. A history of an entire civilization stored in bytes, where children are displayed like prize winning fair animals. Generation X converts their memories to mega bytes. Generation 'why' finds a new place to be angry.

Old lovers and friends faces haunting my dreams again. Some reunions sweet, dripping sugar, others painful, twenty year old scabs removed. So many years past teen spirit, past superficial judgment and yet strangely a cast system comes rushing back with no cause. A cheerleader's body ruined by alcohol and too many babies, but still she believes she is somehow better than me. The sweet boy no one noticed now in the hollywood spotlight, suddenly everyone wants to be his friend.

Joyful memories of fun times with good friends catch me off guard and bring me to tears. A love from sixth grade, handsome even grey, a wonderful find but rude, crushed even after all these years. Emotions running hot and high as if still charged by the hormones of youth.

A dark cloud with a silver lining? A brilliant new interface? Pushing so hard to connect to everyone, quickly typing conversations to fill curiosity. Wondering how many years away we are from complete physical disconnect. Will our children go to school online to avoid the bullies and the drugs? How is honest communication achieved in our cyber world without a voice, without body language? How long until we all live in a small box without windows, only a bed and a computer? Sperm banks shipping product via FedEx already.

So how long? Maybe a book of faces can tell us.

Visit

The Carson City kids (my brother's family) spent this last week in Utah and we had a really great visit! Every time they are here there are always a million things going on and the time seems to go by in such a blur they are gone before we know it. This visit was special because it was Summer's Birthday and the Easter weekend, but honestly just them being in town makes it a special occasion. I will keep the cheese to a minimum, but I have to say, I really love my family and I am so amazed at the wonderful little people my siblings are raising! I am blessed with 8 nieces and nephews, each one a phenomenal miniature human!
Papa Dave & the Carson Kids Easter morning, super cute! :)

Funny random observation for the day

You know when you buy and new car and then notice the same make/model everywhere you look? Well this week I have noticed more posters, commercials and ads for smokers than ever before. I just have to tell you about one that I read that almost threw me on the floor with laughter!

In my pediatricians office they had a poster listing ten reasons why life would be better if you quit smoking, things like "your house & clothes will smell better" (I'm thinking, that's true). So I get to number five and it says, "you will have fewer burns on your clothes and furniture"......FEWER? LMAO!! Like a normal person, a non-smoker should expect SOME burns in their clothing, but if you quit smoking, you will have a fewer number of burns than usual. Sigh...LOL....Who writes this crap?

Quilt to Quit

My first quilt, tackled in a week! A square for everyone I love and some memory pieces from favorite baby clothes, old shirts and even grandma's old table cloth. Basically the oddest collaboration of colors and fabrics ever, but I love it. This quilt kept me distracted while I quit smoking, a blanket that saves lives....*covering Daisy's ears*...LOL, most people have dogs who save lives! The whole project was so extremely domestic that I almost wonder if I have been abducted by aliens, but hey I can check something off the bucket list! :)

The Truth...

Ok we have all heard the advertising campaign "the truth about smoking", so I would like to share the truth about quiting! Today is day 6 of my smoke free life, and this week has been a roller coaster *cough* from Hell. For all of my friends and family who are smoking, I would still encourage you to quit just because I'm selfish (Love ya'll) and want to die before any of you, so you may want to stop reading here.

The Truth they don't tell you about quiting....

1. Your children/teenagers may die in the process, or kill you which ever comes first.
2. All the hype about the taste buds returning is NOT a good thing when your butt doesn't need any additional twinkie padding!!
3. As my sense of smell is also returning, I now have no problem finding the cat box when I am in the basement. :(
4. All these years of showering before I go out so that I won't smell like cigarettes is strangely still necessary everyday! LOL Dunno why but the two have always gone together in my brain.
5. Same goes for brushing my teeth...Damn it the task is still necessary!
6. I am no longer physically addicted to cigarettes. Now I am addicted to nicotine gum (fives times as expensive per piece)!
7. Last but not least....Now I will live to a ripe old age and with all the money I save I can afford the nursing home where I can live out those extra years!!!

As with any loss there is a grieving process, I am sure that my current stage of grief is anger....sigh, I'll post again when I get to acceptance.

Great timing...

Not sure if it was just great timing or if I have great guardian angels, but this morning after a heavy snow one of our big trees lost a limb and just missed me! It fell where I stand every morning while my dog (remember I'm not a dog person!) is doing her 'business'. I turned around, came in and then the limb fell, it would have gone through my chest! Scared the crap out of me!! It hit the back door, luckily my patio furniture buffered the fall or it might have gone through the glass. Think I will stay out of the back yard today!

Random Observation

Just wanted to share my random observation for the day. So we all know that our society is changing to an electronic world by leaps and bounds, nothing new, but today I had a sad moment when I found a small victim of our new world. Stationery is gone. Yes, yes laugh at me if you must, but it's true and I am sad about it!

Simple lined writing tablets in pretty colors, covered in little bears or angels in the corner with matching envelopes are just simply hard to find. Sure I could probably find some online somewhere or special order something personalized, but I just want to write a letter to my grandma....sigh.

I went to four different stores, including hallmark and staples and couldn't find any! Sure they have tons of paper you can throw into a laser printer, but come on, doesn't anyone write...physically write letters anymore? Eighty year old grandmas don't do e-mail and they think a blackberry is well a berry. Phone calls are appreciated, but forgotten in moments of senility. A letter is physical evidence that someone still loves them and took the time to tell them with a stamp and a trip to the post office. It can be read over again and can't be misunderstood even if their hearing is going.

I love the speed and ease of computers, but sometimes it is sad how oddly disconnected we all are now with this era of constantly improving connections. If anyone happens across some stationery, let me know where you found it, thanks much! :)